Woah!

"The Old Christian way taught that until man faced the fact of his evil nature, he would forever be a prisoner of illusion and of those magicians who would enslave his energies – ostensibly in pursuit of utopia – but actually to the furtherance of the inner executive power ideology of a secret elite."

Over the past few days I've been trying to figure out why I am in the situations I am in. What's going on? Are events actually symbolic of what we deserve? Is my only crime that I have no faith in God and I'm born into nescience in this material world? Somehow I have a feeling that this line of thought makes sense. I mean look at all these Rockfellrs and Bushes and Corporate big-wigs who care a fig about human beings at large - they just want personal comforts and control over the entire populace - at whatever cost. If a couple of millions have to die, it makes no difference to me - I should have enough on my platter.

Because of devil-like magnates that control every life on this planet, living beings have so much struggle for existence where there should not be much. Pay this, pay that, bribe him, stand in lines, struggle, get to the top, compromise, give tax, get hassled, get to be insecure, believe very strongly that doing a 9-5 job is what humans were created for and that there is no other way to survive or sustain ourselves and there is no alternative possibility. People are innocent and silly.

Or are they? Maybe they're just ok with it. Fine, exploit me. I'll search for someone else to exploit. People in fact are not so stupid. They know something is really wrong with the way the world is, but they want to ignore that - if they acknowledge it they may have to act upon their knowledge - better not to have any knowledge. Whatever it is - I don't know - and I don't want to know.

Exploitation? What are you talking about? I'm the king of my world! I rock! I have gadgets and gizmos to keep me numb. I'm not waking up anytime soon. Let me get more entangled in my mesh of conditioned thinking, let me drown myself in this absurd pseudo reality. Let me be.... a prisoner of illusion.

Maya is so strong - that even a person endeavouring to control his senses gets carried away. She will try every trick in the book to get you away from self-realisation. She will put distrust in your heart - you suddenly feel that all of religion is just hogwash used to exploit you. She will give you fame, wealth, beauty, power, and who knows what else, to keep you from waking up. The thing is, she is not the supreme. The authority above her can invoke a person to become a seeker. Once this happens - it is totally a choice of the seeker to go after either the absolute truth, or be satisfied with being cheated by illusion. And its obvious that once you know what you know, you can't go back. You either continue sincerely, or you become that villian in matrix who sold his soul to agent smith in return for a good illusory existence where he could enjoy unreal things. Thats precisely what we've done. We've killed out spiritual consciousness by favouring illusory pleasures. We don't want the truth. But the thing is - truth does not cheat you - it gives you as it is. Still, it is a matter of personal preference once you come to a stage where you can choose.