And my true nature demands that I...

Act? A series of coincidences led me to realising how much acting comes naturally to me, and whether I should really indulge in it as my form of creative enjoyment like my need to help others. It seems to be a part of me. It does seem to be a skill I have, that I would enjoy using greatly. It's inherent. Or is it? Am I just kidding myself? Is this my way of expressing my craziness? By going on adding a new profession to my kitty? Am I really too crazy to be allowed to live? Or is it incomparable to the great crazy people who came before me?

I want to think that its true. That its meant to be. How nice! I used to love preparing for the impromtu acts! What fun that was, what nice involvement, how very perfect! I can then put up an act for every situation - keeping myself out of it - not having to deal with this mad world.

My every desire is rooted in some need... some vicious need to save myself or help myself escape. Can I honestly have a desire not based on these weaknesses but just based on my intrinsic nature? I want to make it possible.

Lets see what happens.