To Krishna

we all know how it is when you try to give your own senses pleasure. Like eating a Lindt soft center chocolate. One is never enough. The wonderful taste comes and goes. it does not stay.

have we any experience of ever increasing bliss? which is eternal?

do we want to find it?

then let us take to the recommended process. The process is to revive our dormant consciousness of Krishna, the Supreme Being.

Let us pray to Krishna, He is the Supreme Absolute Truth. Pray that your chanting can attract His attention and please Him with your sincerity. He will certainly then ask you why you are chanting His Name? Do you want something?

In answer, please tell Him, Krishna, I am yours. I am your part and parcel. Yet somehow I am here and I don't know where You are. Please come Krishna, please come and grace me with Your presence. I wish to be with You and thank you, be grateful for all the sunshine, all the gifts You are continually showering on me every day without expecting a single thank you in return. I want to express how grateful I am Krishna that You have given me everything I need without my even asking You.

Oh dear Krishna, I am so ungrateful that life after life I simply seek my own success, satisfaction and fulfilment. Sometimes I want to rule the world, sometimes I want to be famous, and sometimes I want the most beautiful spouse and perfect lover. I never thought even once about what You like, what You want. I simply assumed that Your role in my life is to ceaselessly satisfy my needs and that my role is to simply keep asking You to fulfill my hundreds and millions of unending desires.

I never thought that You are also a person, that You also have desires. That you might be waiting for me to turn and look at You and wonder why You love me so much, even though I have forgotten You and neglected You completely. I don't feel I need you, even though I could not even see, speak or smell without your help and sanction.

Please come and grace me with your presence and let me apologize for neglecting you life after life, where I was simply pursuing my own dreams and so called happiness.

I have tried making myself happy. But you see Krishna, I am frustrated... every, single time. Yet I have strong faith that if I just try a little harder, just try another way, I will be happy. In this illusion, I cannot understand that this happiness I am calculating to get in the future will never be mine. It is like a carrot in front of the donkey. He tries to grab it, but it remains at a little distance in front of Him. In the end, this body will wither away and die.

I have decided to give up faith in this lie, this lie that I can be happy here in this world without you. The deceitful world and it's false promises cannot fool me anymore. My dear Lord, certainly there are so many worlds you have created. This is not the only world. There is Your Kingdom, which we have all heard about, where you are personally living. I wish to come there and do for you, what you have been doing for me all this while. Please help me Krishna, to remember who I am, who you are, and what I can do to be truly happy.