Songs of love
The other day, I felt the song "Everything I do" pop into my mind. And as that happened, I was crying, thinking of how deep Krishna's love for me is.
I couldn't believe it. After my rebellion, accepting mayavada and coming to this realm, after I degraded myself inexcusably, and after I have lost all touch with my soul and truth, it seems shocking that Krishna still loves me, and so so much. His love is drenched with emotion, it is strong and wild. This love is not lukewarm. It is an all-out blast of crazy emotion, a willingness to die for, to fight for, to lie for me. Me?
Krishna, My dearmost friend. I slip into tamo guna every night, and in the morning, I find it near impossible to chant because it's a sattvic activity. I simply doze off, as my mind fails to make the jump from inactivity to strong meditation. I know you are trying to help me, send me clues. I am really not the one who decided to go back to Godhead. You are the one who has decided it's time for me to come back home, and so here I am. I feel I have no willpower. Thank you for constantly reminding me that I want to know the truth, I want to go back home.
Search your heart, search your soul, and when you find Me there, you'll search no more.
I look forward, to finding You there Krishna. Thank You for tagging along on this crazy punishment with me.
If it wasn't for Your reassurance, I would certainly be bewildered.
Fasle, aur kam, ho rahe hain. Door se paas ham ho rahe hain. Tu kisi aur ki ho na jana, kuch bhi kar jaunga main diwana. Tu haan kar ya naa kar tu hai meri kiran (yes, I am a tiny ray coming from You).
As time goes by, and as I chant with more attention, more feeling, more enthusiasm, surely I will be able to move to sattva guna and stay there. And eventually, I can use that to jump up to vishuddha sattva to where You are. You have incarnated as my guru. You are my everything. Yet I am lost and hopeless. But You give me hope. All I need is to hear. Hear Your message submissively from Your devotees. Then by this service, all blessings are there and all will be revealed.
Shravana, kirtana. Then I will be able to speak... I am longing for this journey to take off from the ground and go into the sky. I pray that I can be humble. I pray that I may never offend anyone.
Thank You Krishna. I have no love for You even though You are crazy in love with me. Please help me find that love for You that I lost somewhere.
I couldn't believe it. After my rebellion, accepting mayavada and coming to this realm, after I degraded myself inexcusably, and after I have lost all touch with my soul and truth, it seems shocking that Krishna still loves me, and so so much. His love is drenched with emotion, it is strong and wild. This love is not lukewarm. It is an all-out blast of crazy emotion, a willingness to die for, to fight for, to lie for me. Me?
Krishna, My dearmost friend. I slip into tamo guna every night, and in the morning, I find it near impossible to chant because it's a sattvic activity. I simply doze off, as my mind fails to make the jump from inactivity to strong meditation. I know you are trying to help me, send me clues. I am really not the one who decided to go back to Godhead. You are the one who has decided it's time for me to come back home, and so here I am. I feel I have no willpower. Thank you for constantly reminding me that I want to know the truth, I want to go back home.
Search your heart, search your soul, and when you find Me there, you'll search no more.
I look forward, to finding You there Krishna. Thank You for tagging along on this crazy punishment with me.
If it wasn't for Your reassurance, I would certainly be bewildered.
Fasle, aur kam, ho rahe hain. Door se paas ham ho rahe hain. Tu kisi aur ki ho na jana, kuch bhi kar jaunga main diwana. Tu haan kar ya naa kar tu hai meri kiran (yes, I am a tiny ray coming from You).
As time goes by, and as I chant with more attention, more feeling, more enthusiasm, surely I will be able to move to sattva guna and stay there. And eventually, I can use that to jump up to vishuddha sattva to where You are. You have incarnated as my guru. You are my everything. Yet I am lost and hopeless. But You give me hope. All I need is to hear. Hear Your message submissively from Your devotees. Then by this service, all blessings are there and all will be revealed.
Shravana, kirtana. Then I will be able to speak... I am longing for this journey to take off from the ground and go into the sky. I pray that I can be humble. I pray that I may never offend anyone.
Thank You Krishna. I have no love for You even though You are crazy in love with me. Please help me find that love for You that I lost somewhere.
posted by Vyoma at Wednesday, February 08, 2017
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