Theory and Practice

I realize theoretically that Harinaam is the only shelter, the only truth, the only solace. I can see terrible times ahead, and I know I do not have time to remain fallen. I do not have time to waste being lost and disconnected. I must cry and cry sincerely, otherwise the grace will not come. And if it does not come, what is the point of living a worthless life of ignorance? What is the use if I cannot make something good out of a bad bargain? What is the use of my knowledge and spiritual inklings?

When will I be able to desire the chanting of the Holy Name constantly? What kind of purification does that require?