The stage is set

The world is ready for the final and deadly third world war. Am I ready? Am I willing to take shelter of Krishna? Is my faith strong? Time will tell.

I have become painfully aware of my defects, my offensive envious mentality, and my inability to apologize to those I have hurt. I am not able to control my senses, I am afraid of giving up slavery of my mind and senses and do my best to keep them comfortable. I am foolish, not willing to learn from anyone. I have no trust in others. I am unwilling to keep my promise to my guru by making his instructions my life and soul. What will become of me? My sadhana is not where I want it to be. Yet I am complacent, not determined, not dridha vrata. I am not fighting. I am resigned, just allowing time to flow by.

When the war finally starts, how will I preach? What will be my message and how will I help others? What will I do for survival and health and peace? How will I look at the whole world transcendentally, knowing that wars come and go, and that service to Krishna is not hindered by anything?

Will I be able to give up my insecurities? Will I be able to let go of the need to control?