Shravanaadi Shuddhi Citte

If I go on trying to purify my desires, live a pure life of duties and devotion, purify my activities, and chant and hear of Krishna, then pure love will awaken one day. One day, when I hear about Krishna with a pure heart, I will fall in love with Him all over again. And once I have that most valuable love in my heart, I will be able to completely give up all unwanted things and proceed quickly on the path back home. By serving through the act of chanting, reading, hearing, I will attract mercy and auspiciousness. One day, gradually, I will be able to give up offenses and meditate constantly on the real object of love. In this absorbed state, I will forget this material existence. I will forget hunger, thirst, hankering, I will forget this world and life. I will forget. My mind, being cleansed of the desire to serve the senses will have only one desire, that is to please the Self. Seeing this desire in my mind, I will be able to perceive My Lord and me. He has given me existence out of His very self, and my purpose for existing is to serve with love. This service is my goal and life. This service is the most valuable gift. Without this, I serve ungrateful masters. What has this material energy given me? Here also I have a chance to serve Him, but instead I am distracted, addicted to useless activities, diseased. This disease has gone on long enough. It has covered my true potential. Lying, wasting time, and lost, I wonder why I am not happy. But I am sick. And to recover fully will need time, medicine, and breaking out of old patterns.

Prayer of Saint Francis of Assisi

make me a channel of your peace
where there is hatred let me bring your love
where there is injury, your pardon Lord
and where there's doubt, true faith in you

make me a channel of your peace
where there's despair in life
let me bring hope
where there is darkness, only light
and where there's sadness, ever joy

Oh master grant that I may never seek
So much to be consoled as to console
To be understood, as to understand
To be loved as to love with all my soul

Make me a channel of your peace
It's in pardoning that we are pardoned
In giving to one that we receive
and in dying that we're born to eternal life

Bhakti is effort plus mercy

Efforts must be uplifting and conducive

Mercy is not in our control, we simply await it

When all goes out of control, you have to live each moment as it comes. You cannot prepare for it.

Who am I?

Who am I?
Why can't I just be who I am? What is covering me? What is stopping me?
Chi - in this movie, Panda fearlessly overcomes the evil foe without really knowing how he was going to do it.

Will I also surrender to Krishna at a very climatic moment? And not knowing what to do, will I also somehow overcome? My faith? Will it pass the test?

The more you take, the less you have.

When you empower others, they empower you.

When you believe you cannot do something, you are wrong.

I want to stop living a dead life and live to my true potential. I can be a fully empowered jiva or I can be a miserly one. Out of fear and lethargy, will I give up my attempt to fly after having come so far? After my purpose is more purified than before?

The love you have for Krishna is the love you will have for others. And the love of Krishna and others is what helps you do the impossible. Enemies become friends. Problems vanish. Skadoosh.

I want to live this adventure. But I feel unprepared and lost. I feel down and low. I feel maybe I am being too childish to expect an adventure - what if I am imagining too much.

But I know I must rise up. time is running out. the inevitable horror of the future has almost arrived. i must do my part. no matter how small or big it is. I must not desist. I must not resist. I can be me. I can try my best. I should not hide out of low confidence. I must be confident of Krishna. I must have faith in Him.

Humble as a blade of grass, more tolerant than a tree

Harer Nama Harer Nama Harer Nama eva Kevalam
Kalau Nasti eva Nasti eva Nasti eva Gatir Anyatha

Trinad api sunichena, taror iva sahishnuna
Amanina mana dena, kirtaniya sada Hari

One must be more humble than a blade of grass, more tolerant than a tree, giving all respect to others and expecting none in return. In this mood, one can chant the Holy Names constantly.

My goal is one: to become more humble than a blade of grass, to be more tolerant than a tree, giving all respect to others and expecting none in return. In this way I can chant constantly in the right mood, and the Lord will then consider giving me Pure Love for Himself. With that love, I can surrender completely, and my life will be successful.

Songs of love

The other day, I felt the song "Everything I do" pop into my mind. And as that happened, I was crying, thinking of how deep Krishna's love for me is.

I couldn't believe it. After my rebellion, accepting mayavada and coming to this realm, after I degraded myself inexcusably, and after I have lost all touch with my soul and truth, it seems shocking that Krishna still loves me, and so so much. His love is drenched with emotion, it is strong and wild. This love is not lukewarm. It is an all-out blast of crazy emotion, a willingness to die for, to fight for, to lie for me. Me?

Krishna, My dearmost friend. I slip into tamo guna every night, and in the morning, I find it near impossible to chant because it's a sattvic activity. I simply doze off, as my mind fails to make the jump from inactivity to strong meditation. I know you are trying to help me, send me clues. I am really not the one who decided to go back to Godhead. You are the one who has decided it's time for me to come back home, and so here I am. I feel I have no willpower. Thank you for constantly reminding me that I want to know the truth, I want to go back home.

Search your heart, search your soul, and when you find Me there, you'll search no more.

I look forward, to finding You there Krishna. Thank You for tagging along on this crazy punishment with me.

If it wasn't for Your reassurance, I would certainly be bewildered.

Fasle, aur kam, ho rahe hain. Door se paas ham ho rahe hain. Tu kisi aur ki ho na jana, kuch bhi kar jaunga main diwana. Tu haan kar ya naa kar tu hai meri kiran (yes, I am a tiny ray coming from You).

As time goes by, and as I chant with more attention, more feeling, more enthusiasm, surely I will be able to move to sattva guna and stay there. And eventually, I can use that to jump up to vishuddha sattva to where You are. You have incarnated as my guru. You are my everything. Yet I am lost and hopeless. But You give me hope. All I need is to hear. Hear Your message submissively from Your devotees. Then by this service, all blessings are there and all will be revealed.

Shravana, kirtana. Then I will be able to speak... I am longing for this journey to take off from the ground and go into the sky. I pray that I can be humble. I pray that I may never offend anyone.

Thank You Krishna. I have no love for You even though You are crazy in love with me. Please help me find that love for You that I lost somewhere.

Caksu daan

Donated eyes for the blind. I am now beginning to realize. Everyone gets jnana caksu from guru if they are loyal. I am not the only one with a buzzing third chakra. This eye is the eye showing the worlds within. It will be so nice when I can finally see the Lotus Feet of Sri Guru in my head and heart. Once I see Them, I will be peaceful and relieved from material distresses. Then I can work for Gurudeva and give up all independence. I can give up all sense of proprietorship and attachment to this world. I can be truly situated in my position as the servant of Sri Guru.

I am his servant! Why do I waste my days in laziness and nonsense. Why don't I endeavor to use every moment for him? I am such a fool. And I continue suffering here. Stress because of money that I think belongs to me.

Self Realization is Easy

https://theharekrishnamovement.org/category/science-of-self-realization/

“This is a simple method. All you have to do is bow down before Krishna with faith and say, ‘My Lord Krishna, I was forgetful of You for so long, for so many lives. Now I have come to my consciousness; please accept me.’ That’s all. If one simply learns this technique and sincerely surrenders himself to the Lord, his path is immediately open.” (Science of Self-Realization, Chapter 7)

"I was moved by how simple this process is. Srila Prabhupada has said; “…it is so simple we can miss it”. But we are in a fortunate position, because Srila Prabhupada has given us the method to return home Back to Godhead through his books and instructions."

How do I use my propensities for Krishna?

If people like Krishna because they like me then that is the best use I can be put to.

Everyone is trying to show themselves worthy of love

Love me because I'm honest
because I went to Thailand for vacation
because I can do yoga postures
because I need love
because I drive a honda
because I can make people laugh
because I look pretty
because I can be tough and use bad words like no one else

Looking for love outside is just a waste of time. It's within.